hey folks
I decided: I’m packing up on this blog and keeping it as an archive just in case, but I’m moving to a new account and URL
so if you still wanna follow me then send an ask and I’ll respond, and I’ll be refollowing a bunch of people in a bit
also I’ll queue this up to reblog every so often for a day or so, so I’m sure people see it
I’m laughing so hard rn because liein promo’d me while I’m in the middle of considering abandoning ship
Liein is gr8 though, we knew each other when we were small childs (like, 1st and 2nd grade, when we were living in Japan) and she’s very sweet and funny and passionate about animation which is really cool
so consider this a counter-promo. TAKE THAT
aaaanyway I’m probably gonna hold off on. actually posting much stuff on here for the day, outside of maybe chatting with people, while I figure out once again if I want to go through with shelving this blog and moving to a new one or if I’m gonna stay put. no point in stuffing more posts on a blog that I’m not sure I really want to keep right now
elementnumber47
silver is a hack, nobody cares about silver
times like these make me consider just ditching this account - either deleting it wholly or abandoning it as an ‘archive’ of sorts - and remaking my blog
this would help with fixing my organization of posts, decluttering my followers and followed blogs in one instant, and just generally make me feel better about having gotten rid of 3+ years of junk
but also I’m a horrible packrat and can’t bring myself to let go of things even when I know I don’t actually use or want them, up until it builds up and hits a breaking point
this isn’t getting into the fucked up things I had internalized regarding… basically any marginalized groups, but especially trans people, and the anti-SJ stuff I bought into because I honestly didn’t understand any of the discourse going on and just assumed people were being jerks
but if I tried to hunt down and uproot all of that off my blog I think I would lose it
being a Touhou fan meant meeting, and eventually befriending, quite a few cool people but also I don’t think I can ever get into Touhou again because of what i was like back then
I think I threw myself into it so deeply because I saw maintaining an interest in it as an obligation and that led to a lot of the creepier stuff linked to that. how did any of you people STAND me back then
plus I haven’t touched the games in forever (and I was bad at them already) and the comics don’t interest me terribly so what does that even leave
Really?
cringeworthy parroting of otaku mannerisms and terms, vaguely creepy fawning over pictures of anime/touhou characters, and at least once I actually used the term #rape face
destroy past me at all costs tbh
further blog reorganization/tag decluttering
wow I was a complete trashboy circa 3 years ago and I am in a constant state of cringing about this
like, if you’re attracted to cis women but not attracted to trans women, i definitely urge you to ask yourself why
trans women are a really really broad class and i can’t see any meaningful way that someone being part of that class necessarily tells you much about our bodies. is the difference something which is actually there (and there is not much there) or something which patriarchy has constructed?
because i think it’s an awfully huge coincidence if the entire class of people who you just happen to categorically not be attracted to are also an entire class of people who patriarchy just happens to take every opportunity to construct as disgusting and unfuckable
like that oppressive socialisation probably has something to do with that preference, and if you interrogate it you might find that the only reason you weren’t open to intimacy w trans women was because of it
if you do so then congratulations, you’ve successfully beaten up the little patriarchal cop in your head!
Hello dear friends! Would you mind circulating this post again? Literally only transmisogynists are doing that now, passing it around with godawful commentary on it and smugly tagging it #rape culture and if i get called a rapist one more time by a smug BDSM blogger i’m going to flip my shit, thank u all <3